R.I.P

Today is a very very sad and solemn day for me. 20 out of my 21 tetras had died and flushed down into the toilet bowl. I am terribly upset as I am typing out these words. Dearest fishes, I hope you rest in peas and I'm really sorry I am unable to give you a proper burial and flush you down the sewage along with other crap.

The three months we shared was great. I never thought that you guys would live that long. How your fish tank light always light up the house at night that I do not need to worry when I go pee pee. How I always unintentionally scare you popping out of nowhere and frightening the gills out of you when I just wanna look at you when life get tough. You were like a mini ocean in my house and your mesmerizing blue neon has that calming effect that no other tetras have. I will not betray you getting more tetras. I will rear some guppies instead this time.

I will never forget the day I went to the fish shop and fish you guys out myself. I'm also sorry at days when I feed you and put the food too close to the filter and you guys had to race against the current before it hits the tank bed cause your brains are just too small to think that you can always swim to the tank bed for them. I love you tetras, I bet you guys are going to taste good when fried. R.I.P

P.S. To that sole surviver shivering in the tank now, I know you won't live long. If you do, I hope you are a female and have tiny tetra eggs in your belly so we can have new tetra family and I can save $6 on new guppies.=]



Last night was a horrible night for me. For no apparent reason, my arms started hurting real bad and I went crying to my mom. Yes, I cried like a baby to my mom. At first, I thought it was some cramps you get while sleeping, so I tried hard to sleep but everytime I more an inch, it got worse. And I scared the shit out of my mom cause she was wondering why I would sleep next to her all of the sudden and I started brawling once she asked me what happened. LOL. I can't believe I did that.
All this crying episodes leads to lectures and a lot of nagging from my mom the moment I woke up today for work and on the car to work. She started saying how I always say I'm not tired but I am actually tired, leading to topic on Buddha and how He knew that killing the trees would have global warming and how he meditated to learn about things, to telling me watching Nichkhun on tv makes him healthier and richer while I get poorer and weaker.

SO! I've decided (NO, definitely not giving up watching korean dramas) to lead a healthy lifestyle. In the beginning of the year, one of my new year resolutions is to sleep at least 8 hours a day. Somehow I'm always 1 or 2 hours short. Half a year's gone and this is shit. I'm also going to exercise. Most probably take some popping and locking class or some b-girl classes to burn some fat cause I spotted tiny celulites of my tighs and my stretch marks on my ass is still there, and people are starting to grobe my tummy. Which sucks, I'm supposed to be hot. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! Oma, otokae?!(*translation Mother, what am I going to do?!)

I admit, I'm in a horrible state. I just wanna fill my day with something to do. Study on weekdays, work on weekends. My mom had been pestering me to quit my job. Heartbreaks don't break even, believe Buddha and karma will strike, and when you take things for granted. I took things for granted. I didn't treasure, ididn't cherish. I was to blame. No one else. I'm really selfish. I hope she makes you smile.




ohmyikissedestherlastnight!!!!